I think ive gotten wayyyyyyy too soft now. Never really understood the appeal of headpats. generally speaking i think its weird when people do it or are obsessed with it.

For years I used to only allow close friends to spoil me like that bc they look really happy doing it. a lot of people tend to dote on me bc for whatever reason. My only assumption is because im quite young and petite looking. I suppose my anxious personality too brings out a doting side of people im not sure.

I genuinely have no fucking clue when or why im only now kind of into it. I think its only because im so stressed out lately. Anything even vaguely calming to me is something to be cherished i guess.